| Wow. NOVEMBER. |
[13 Dec 2030|11:11am] |
Well hey LJ, its been a while!
-Yo dude, you left my ass at the curb. Wtf?
Sorry LJ...Ive been so busy doing all this crazy shit I havent been--
-Its myspace and facebook isnt it? You fucking left me you cocksucking traitor. After all those years...
LJ, come on you know those internet networking sites arent the same as--
-AS WHAT NICK!? A FUCKING BLOG???
Calm down LJ, I didn't-
-THINK, NICK. YOU DIDNT FUCKING THINK! What the fuck happened man?? The last time you even SPOKE to me you had JUST started doing cartoons and all that shit for the internet...Now you have myspace.com/blakandwiteBK, you have the blogspot and shit is everywhere! Do IIII see anything? FUCK NO!
Lj....Lj....I still love you. Ive just been doing shit other than posting. I didnt delete you did I?
-Well...No.
Okay, so right there that should show you we're cool.
-Yeah...But we shared so much back in the day! I miss it.
Yeah, I do too. But the internet is changing pal. Lots of new things to do.
-So I'm not new enough?
I didn't say that...Is Abraham Lincoln not new enough?
-He was a legend!
And still is...Just like you LJ...A legend in internet history.
-I love you Nick.
You too LJ...You too.
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| Jesus Myth |
[12 Dec 2030|01:13pm] |
Its been a while.
Phew
Life is good still, went through some shit and came out alive.
So...How bout them Mets?
Yeah, i have been writing alot (not counting online ofcourse)
OrangePress has taken off with Blak&Wite as its forerunning magazine which is cool.
Its neat-o when you see a thought or a dream of yours materialize, form a group of like-minds and go to print.
Soon a CircleSquare book will be produced and THAT will make me just jizzaload.
Going to Costa Rica, Mexico and Panama for Christmas and i couldnt be more stoked.
I promise I WILL be putting those pics up. Not just on the Monster that the Myspace empire has become, but here on the original, lowly and less "advertizey" Livejournal.
Soon my website for art and comics and stuff will be up. Some name ideas have been circulating:
www.ZIDDIGYIDDIG.com
www.ZIDDIG.com
www.CombatKahn.com
www.NHP.com
www.NPcomix.com
I dont know, give me some feedback. Ziddigyiddig is the name that i write comics under so it seems appropriate but i dont want to say it and people ask me "Um, so how do you fuckin spell that??"
ZIDDIG is shorter and leaves the imagination to run around. NHP are my innitials and leave room for some marketing opps and trademarking haha
Going to Targe' now, PEACE
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| 8.28.07 |
[28 Aug 2030|09:23pm] |
Wow man.
Its crazy how life changes.
Always. I dont see it until its changed.
Then we look back and wonder what happened to time.
But really, its what happened to the shit we were doing, and what it evolved into.
Im working at Sam Ash now.
Possibly the chillest job i have ever had.
Work on stage lighting all day, mix music until someone asks me who my favorite artists are, go home.
Getting paid really is the ultimate high.
$$$
I figure ill spend probably another year here in FL.
I have an ever growing love affair with sarasota, its rustling palm trees whisper sweet nothings in my ear but truely my blood tells me to get out and keep running all over the country.
Im saving now, and ill continue this for another year then Ill probably be going back to the city.
Going to Costa rica and Mexico this December. SO excited.
Big family trip, me and all my cousins, aunt, grandma, grandpa, mom and sister.
The whole brigade.
I went into walgreens today and realized that walgreens is the only thing letting me know what time of year it is, and accordingly, what holiday to celebrate. I swear to god, little bunnies and eggs cascaded the walls of that place last week and now its pumpkins and witches. Light though, nothing big yet. The real Halloween stuff doesnt come out until Sept 15.
I want to plan a large scale Halloween party, if anyone is interested in making it happen contact me.
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| Dim Lights |
[08 Aug 2030|11:00pm] |
Its weird when you have to say goodbye to someone
youve known for some while. Either because circumstance
or because you didnt keep in close contact with them over
the last few years and things drifted. Its true, you can turn
your head for a second and when you turn back theres a
whole new world.
Time is our greatest opponant.
Kahn went missing.
-He was found shortly after his escape by animal services.
--I didnt know for 3 days.
Thought Kahn fled to Narnia and stayed this time.
New Moon this 12.
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[14 Jul 2030|03:31pm] |
"When i came upon the massive Labrynth my
scorched mouth became wet again at the sound
of fresh springs.
The gates were stone and reached to the sky like mountains
and when i entered the maze, clear waterfalls surrounded me
acting as walls to the giant structure.
Written in Olde Demonscript, a simple message was carved into the marble floor.
-"Thou Shalt not drink."-
But as i walked deeper, under the hot desert sun and reflecting on the
perilous journey i had taken, mine own soul yearned for the waters of the palace.
Soon my body shook and my mind confused the path i was on.
Voices screamed the sounds of streaming waterfall into my ears and to swallow became like a mouthfull of dust.
The sky became black in my eyes and i felt the marble floor strike my face.
When i awoke i was drifting in a pool i had fallen into and my thirst was quenched,
Suddenly a voice from the peaks of these falls rang out like thunder.
"Cannot you read, traveler?"
I didnt speak, i only lifted my head to locate the source of the words.
And there was silence until i spoke.
"I have ventured far, keeper of this Labrynth! My apologies for any disregard
in this house of holy beings!"
I only heard the splashing of water for a while, then a slight rumbling
in the ground beneath me.
"I hope you enjoyed the fountains you swim in, for it will be the last drop of water you shall ever see!"
shouted the choral voice.
I quickly rose to my feet and saw the demon atop his pillar, goatlike in appearance, raising the gates of a sinister beast's prison.
The large and deep shadow let out a colossal roar as his cage opened
I drew my sword without haste.
Laughter rang out above me.
"You cannot expect to achieve victory in this palace using a petty man's tool! Put your feeble weapon down and die with honor!"
My arm shook, my legs shook, but my hand was steady.
"Bring your beast, demon! You have not heard my name! I am Apollo, prince of the valley; warrior of the East! Bring your pet out to be slain in this palace!"
There i stood, alone in the desert facing the rising gates of a legendary monster and his keeper.
Frog beast or giant water snake?
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| Clean. The cleanest Ive been. |
[26 Jun 2030|03:12pm] |
Depeche Mode is probably the soundtrack to a changing world i see every day.
Download "the things you said", turn down the lights, tune up the speakers and just listen.
I think you will see something i see.
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| Years and years of torment |
[19 Jun 2030|04:02am] |
I remember when he came to me.
He saved me.
It was to Us and them.
It was then i decided.
It was us.
And we would take them for everything they had.
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| L-o-v-e |
[08 Jun 2030|06:47am] |
King and Prince.
<3
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| A glass of Cherri |
[31 May 2030|02:04pm] |
Good times roll.
well. I officially hate havig commitments with friends.
Obligations and all that are best left for rando's and enemies.
I learned something today.
Even if you do love someone, sometimes u have to tell them to fuck off.
Sometimes loving someone can not just make you blind but make you deaf or worse..completely stupid.
I think some good things are coming my way.
I can feel a cool breeze moving in, about to catch my sail.
Wolfy.
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| Over the wind. |
[17 May 2030|05:32am] |
YeOldeLamp.
Shit is nice. Reflecting on alot, seeing into the future is done best at 530 in the morning.
Moved into the new place, its surreal. Even Kahn looks healthier. Watching the sun rise and breathing in the sea breeze is turning out to be my everything and anything. Ah, the beauty we miss.
I recently discovered a video tape made by my dad. It was pretty out of control. He was in the desert, about the time i was in 7th or 8th grade, talking about all these places and plans he had for the future. All about Vegas and adventure. I had never seen it before, apparently it was supposed to reach me when he actually went west but got lost in the shuffle. Found its way to a VHS bin i have been keeping and projected such real life into my living room i'de swear we were hanging out.
I'm glad i found it.
I think i got a job bartending at The Melting Pot. Sick.
The lights stay on..
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| play it cool, tiger. |
[08 May 2030|07:09pm] |
Spent the day sledding in the subway system.
Stairs work just as well as hills.
good.times.
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| Hustle. |
[03 May 2030|08:23pm] |
Is it possible to con someone without even knowing you are doing so?
As if it is a subcontious act?
And then at the end of the con you pat yourself on the back and say "good job" like you knew what was going on the whole time?
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| JOKER AND THE THEIF |
[23 Apr 2030|10:21pm] |
THIS IS THE ANNOUNCEMENT OF MY MOVE BACK TO SARASOTA FLORIDA.
NY is amazing, but its time for school.
I just rented a kick ASS house downtown and shit is gonna get nuts.
See you all in 2 weeks.
Rage.
Oh and one more thing...
I have a hot tub,
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| I want rims on my toast.. |
[22 Apr 2030|09:07pm] |
Time changes so many things..
My sister was bitching about her lame boyfriend and amongst the complaining i heard the terms: Myspace, online, IM, connection, cheated and www about every other word. I reflected on this.
We are now truely living in a double dimensional world.
The generation I spent my highschool years with, in a lesser form {livejournal, maxpages, yahoogroups, beginning myspace media} were also very digital but the last 3 years has fed this black hole called the inter-world tremendously.
Who we are in the physical sense could or could not be who we are through copper wires and plastic keys.
Social culture has become a homepage, shared between friends and watched by those who are too far away to know us in person.
I have been without a personal computer for about a year and a half and now that i have a new one, i can plainly see that the internet has become a solitary, ever explanding world of its own and virtual reality is becoming true reality slowly but surely.
Its everywhere. Movies, TV {which is SO on its way out.}, advertising and even food.
The internet is constantly presented to us and forever buzzing around our heads thanks to the Wi-Fi connection like an invisible swarm of bees.
This underlying world that is accessable through your computer, available at all times in coffee shops, mega structures and restauraunts. Almost anywhere you go there is a signal for internet, a tower or satellite that projects you to a world where your fingertips become your feet.
I wonder when the day will come, when they connect the physical to the virtual.
When taking knowledge or even nutrients to sustain life is as easy as downloading software into your hard drive.
I wonder if we will become the hard drive.
I am going to school in Sarasota for a while, saving some money and chillin out with my loves.
Ill be back in about 4 weeks with my dog, a new pad and some good times to share.
If i had to describe my life right now in words they would be: fresh air.
:]
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| TWO OPTIONS, ONE SOLUTION...LET ME KNOW. |
[18 Apr 2030|07:39pm] |
I have two options...
I am going to be going to school for a major in animation.
Its something i have wanted for quite some time and now i feel like it is within my grasp after learning QUITE a bit about myself in New York City.
But there is a dilema..
Where should i go?
My options are SVA in New York {{www.sva.edu}}
or
Ringling school of Art and Design in Florida (my hometown){{www.ringling.edu}}
On one hand i could go to SVA and stay in NY, doing what i am doing and keeping all my NY ducks in a row. Although money IS a constant issue, it is my understanding that our lovely government will help me out with some grants and living money while i attend school.
--But will it be enough?
If i go to school for this i want to dedicate myself to it FULLY. Working maybe 25hrs a week at a bar and going to school full time is where i want to be.
Although, who is to say that staying in NY is best for my future in school...Keep in mind i said IN SCHOOL, by the time i get my degree in animation i will only be 23-24 years old and by then i know i will end up back in NY anyway.
..Which leads me to my other option.
Ringling. Florida. Great art school and world renouned animation department.
I go to Florida, i get my car, when i get my car i can easily work a few hours while dedicating myself FULLY to school (its a sick car), plus i will be able to finally be with my mom and sister who are the only family i have. That would be nice.
Get my own place, be able to see the beach and chill with my sister and all my old friends {new ones i am sure too} knocking back some beers at the new place. This is something i would really enjoy, not just for me and my schooling, but for them too {famz}.
I feel like NewYork beckons me constantly.
The reality of leaving the city, even if for a short period of time doesnt excite me. Infact it makes me very tense.
I am very well established here and i feel like taking a 4 year break could be a "total miss-out" on some amazing times. Yes the money is bad, yes the living conditions are less than average but that city is and has been the most important part of my life for 2 years now and i am completely in love.
The true question here is..
What takes priority in this "pros and cons battle".
Family, friends, nice car, total focus
or
Friends, NYC, 97% focus (just because of money), amazing oppertutiny in the city.
I am very torn.
Any insight?
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| Kill the Ace, Take the Empire! |
[16 Apr 2030|03:22pm] |
Yeah so..
Life is good.
I quit my job at Diesel because it was getting shitty.
I am hopefully going to be managing a sickkkk bar in Manhattan called Snitch during the day so pray to lord satan abou----......
---..Yeah just wish me luck.
I'll be in Sarasota Wednesday so lets chillllll
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| Kill the Jack, take the diamonds. |
[08 Mar 2030|01:05am] |
In Sarasota.
Liking it, liking i alot.
All the best things about this town have presented themselves to me this trip.
I leave Saturday afternoon,
which will be nice.
I have me to the conclusion that i am going to live an unconditioned life.
Being in a few places at once is never a bad thing, i have many homes and i think thats cool.
Monogamy has never been my fav.
Enough small talk. Lifes too short.
Do you ever come to the realization that the one thing you want the most, the one thing that maks you happiest, is something that may keep destroying you over and over again?
That if shit doesnt change, you will be locked in a loop of filling one hole just to dig another?
I dont know, i seriously believe i think too much about things that are just naturally good and will fold out in a well balanced way if i just stop thinking. But i will never stop thinking, cant help it.
Fuck it, i have too much good shit going on right now to worry about everything.
..But some things are just worth worrying about :]
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| Kill the King, take his wife. |
[01 Jan 2023|09:54pm] |
God i want winter over.
Or atleast, i want it to start again.
I want "that" back. The feeling of almost obligation to say "Oh well its the holiday season" and remember how much is in store. December.
I dont know why this new year has got me down, i guess I'll always want more.
Alot of new things are happening in my life.
Some very positive, none very negative. But i have this unrelenting feeling of needing something while not even knowing what it is. Like whatever i am loking for is going to turn the corner any minute, or must i search for it?
Visiting my family in Illinois made this feeling very strong. Not at first but after i left. The whole time i was there i was focused on what i was going to do when i got back to NY and now that i am back all i can think of is how fun it was to be there.
And it WAS. But more than 7 days in that town and i wouldve begun to crack, there is nothing to do whatsoever.
Yet.
I miss it.
I got a new day job at deisel in Union Square. I am really stoked on working in the day, lately everything i do is at night and i barely get to see the sun.
This will be nice. Seeing daylight and all. :]
Happy New Years.
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[16 Dec 2022|03:52am] |
I have been having an amazing holiday. I leave wednesday to Illinois for Xmas and i couldnt be more stoked.
When i return we will rule the empire.
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| FUCK THAT |
[11 Dec 2022|11:15am] |
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I am never leaving New York.
Everything is fixed. Life just got alot better.
I talked to my family (mom) for a long time today about my goals and why i wanted to return to FL to begin with..
Honestly..
It wouldnt have been for the right reasons.
Going backwards in time in hopes of re-kindling something that i need to forget about in the first place is NO reason to return to FL.
Its done. Its over.
You will never know how m
Forget it.
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